What is "Freeflow"!!! : Introspection

My typical day starts with some sort of door bell.. mom must be in the pooja room and someone would be there to ask for garbage.. i get up with half my eyes shut, which always get opened in the search of the keys to open the door.. its just like inzamam doing the fielding..everytime he thinks that he has got it, it just passes by.. i realise everyday, that there was so much waste at home which was something useful a day before.. is it some kind of cycle which makes you realise that nothing is going to be permanent.. everything is changing.. so, to get stuck at one thing, is not totally appreciable by anyone.. its the flexibility that dustbin teaches me every morning.. then comes some arrangement here and there.. to make home visible to others, that people at this home have already got up... then going to the balcony to show the world.. look, i dont sleep till late which most of you do... but its irony, that people who can see me that time are even more early riser.. so there is nothing to tell them...

nowadays the next phase after one cup of tea is to go for the driving..though now i am not that much frightened to see a bicycle on the road, my actions do say something else.. the uneven structure of most of the bicycles of the city and the weirdest way with which they ride on it, i am totally conscious to hit any somewhere or else.. two controvery arise.. its better safe than worry.. its better to keep a distance rather than going too close.. but then it doesnt seem like i am driving a car.. it looks more like i am driving a bicyle.. this realization tells me why people in car are not seen happy very often.. mostly its not due to the fact that they do not want to look happy.. they have got this attitude towards being so much different from the people on the road, that they want to portray themself as being better in some way.. not taking proper care of those people is one of those ways to do the same.. mostly i take this driving as a challenge, like i do for most of the things.. i decide on the risk for different types of the roads and adequately give command to the driver sahab to take care of the car at the worst places as perceived by me.. for the places where i would have to definitely drive in future, i try to give my best with the minimum feeling of the fear but more with the confidence of saying that i will surely perform this.. so, one of the first things of the day, gives me a great sense of achievement everyday.. and then the day starts with a very positive note.. this gives me a platform to make my day as perfect as possible.. it also gives me an internal motivational energy.. nowadays i am finding an energy in me, i can easily thank a person and this driving for all of this.. some people are just too good.. you can enjoy their presence and cherish the moments with them.. each and every one.. you are always not sure about the future.. whether you would be able to have the contact or even the presence in the future.. but thats ok.. at least you get to know that person.. and you should always try to make those people as close as possible... getting good people in the world is a difficult task.. getting compatible and enjoyable people is the rarest of all...

writing for the entire day would take many episodes.. would surely do..

there is a different thought that is going on my mind today.. and surprisingly that started with the song of qsqt.. "akele hain to kya gam hai..".. though i have thoght about the feeling of being possessive many a times, but today it was something else altogether.. thanks to the song only.. i happened to analyse different eras and their effect on the love life of a person.. if i talk about the people 10 years ago... people were not having different channels of communication.. like mobile or internet.. most of the conversations that happened were verbal.. when they met.. or non-verbal.. once again when they met.. and because of this, those moments were so good.. so less.. so true.. so self-satisficing.. so much pure.. and becuase of these things, you can just think about the good things about a person... you could only get only a slight suspect for that person... and this increases the trust on the other person and so decreases the sense of being possessive... this creates more pure love.. rather than, a love on demand only.. demands are the main killer for a relationship.. i cant say that exactly.. as even after removing those demands from myside, i am not able to get THE relations.. i can easily blame this on other people but it would simply be saying that you can clap with one hand... i believe that when two people start thinking in a similar manner with the same kind of freeflow for the relation, the understanding automatically becomes more strong.. there comes a sense of space and that also increases the non-possessiveness for your partner... a more freeflow relation.. its a kind of positive feedback which can get the system self-sustainable.. people who know about this feedback, for them any disturbance would be a kind of perturb and that would eventually die out without making the relation a burden... but for the people who donot understand all this, for them its like a killing poison or the positive feedback of disturbance which gets away even the relation as well..

This entire discussion needs a second part.. would write soon.. abhi to sona hai... :-)

~ Good night dear void..